Misterious life

Life! Life is full of surprises. Remind ourselves about expecting the unexpected things. It really happen to me for uncounted times. I do have family. It's a very big family. They live with thousands of problems but they are happy.

When I was 6 months, I was adopted by these old couples (Granny). They are very kind and so lovely. I growth well. Lots of laughing and joy.  (Surprise!)

When I was 12, I have been transferred to another couples. This time, it was a young couple. They don't have any child. A year after adopting  me, they have been given a baby girl. They end up with two children. It was a couple child. However, it was lots of brainwashes, hates and tears.(Surprise!)

When I was 16, I decided to transfer to  the new school. brand new life. But it didn't bring much different. (Surprise!)

When I was 18, It was my first time to go for work. I just did it well. I manage to get my first hand phone. (Surprise!)

Several months later, I have been offered to continue study at the local university.  It was awesome. I just get back my happiness.

When I was 19, my lovely mom passed away. Though she's not my biological mom but her true love can't even erase every single moment that I spent with her. RIP mom. I always hope that she'll be last person that'll be taken by Him. But it just a hope. (BIG Surprise).

When I was 20 I graduated from that local univ and continue first degree. (Surprise)

When I was 24, I graduated from another local univ for my first degree. (Surprise)

When I was 26, I graduated from another local univ for my masters degree. (Surprise)

When I was 26 years and 3 months old, I have decided to get engaged to someone that I thought the best for me. (Surprise)

Now, I am 27, I continue my PhD in different program that I never expect that I'll be in that area. (Surprise)

You know what, behind those surprises it contains a lot of emotions. Smiles and tears. Deep in my heart, how I wish that when I was 6 months old, my biological mom hold me, breast feed me, and hugs me for never end loves. I miss to have my very own life. I miss to get close to my siblings.

27 years. Mom, dad, siblings and me cant even be separated. It was destined that we are belong together.
But, it won't never be same.

He tested me and He let me to meet various people with multiple behavior. I love my live very much. But, I feel so empty as it's really hurt to stay with other.

Dedicated to my beloved biological mom, dad and siblings,
It was hurt to stay with other's family. It wont be same. I have been tortured a lot and I have no rights to stand for my own happiness. There's no sweet memories at all except a bleed heart.

Dedicated to my uncle and auntie,
Thanks for taking care of me. I have never asked you to really take care of me. I swear to God that I never asked to be chosen for disturbing your life. But the way, i am not a part of that psychopath! I just hate it! I just can't stand anymore and I just cant forgive it. It will remains until you realize that you have made a big mistake.
Anyway, thanks a lot.

Dedicated to my fiancee,
You are nice. At first place, I guess, he has sent you to replace my late mom. You treat me like a princess. Your patience is just to perfect. Staying with you, makes me feel safe. Thanks a lot!

Dedicated to me,
You just did it well. RIP dear. May Allah bless you. Stay strong.

I just wanted to say that life is full of surprises. It makes me so miserable. I am so tired dealing with those surprises. Oh, please I just a little hope for a better day.

-Hanana-